Well it's been a while. A lot has happened, but then again at the same time, not much has happened. Adam went to Baltimore for a wedding over this past weekend. The kids and I stayed at home. Sorry to say it, but we had a nice relaxing weekend without Daddy. It's nice to be apart for a little while, (unless it means he's going overseas). I feel less rushed to clean up and have dinner done at a certain time. It's not like he rushes me to do this stuff (not all the time), but I still feel it from him when he's here. So, all in all a good weekend.
He came back with a friend from Memphis, who also went to the wedding. He is flying outta here on Sunday. It's always nice to have people from home visiting.
The husband and I did get in a fight a couple days ago. I won't go into details, but we were both to blame to a certain extent. He has a anger problem, and has for years. Sometimes he has a problem controlling it. I suppose that is something that we will have to work through.
Also me and the friend watched "The A Team" lastnight. I loved it!! I wasn't expecting to like it at all, seeing as how I usually don't care for action movies. But this one was a winner in my eyes.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Life...
Sometimes I feel like I'm losing hope for the human race. I mean, people these days are so rude, everyone is in a hurry, and no one seems to give anyone else a second thought. It's very sad to me. We are in this together, right?! It doesn't seem like it to me anymore. I know there are good people out there, I just haven't run across any lately......
On another note....Adam is scheduled to get out of the Marine Corps in January of 2012, which is about a year and a half from now. I am supposed to graduate from nursing school in May of 2012. He's gone back and forth on the notion of signing up for another enlistment. It really depends on how work is going. I think it's been going good lately, because he talks more and more about staying in and making a career out of it. I'm not exactly sure how I feel about this. When he first joined the Marine Corps I absolutely hated the way life was going. He left for boot camp Jan 08' came back in April, our daughter was born in May, and then June 1st he was off to combat training. Immediately after that he went to MOS school at Twenty Nine Palms in CA. He was in CA, and I was in Memphis, TN. In Sept 08' he was done w/ MOS, and went to his first duty station, Cherry Point, NC. I assumed now the kids and I would move to NC to be w/ him. Well, this isn't exactly how it played out at first.
He seemed to be having second thoughts about something. Was it me, the kids, or did he just want a new life to himself??? He gave me the run around for a while, then I finally found out that he had been talking to this girl that he met in CA. She was actually just vacationing in CA. I didn't ever find out the extent of their relationship, and I really don't care to know. Back then I did, but now I don't. It really doesn't matter. Obviously we worked through the whole thing. We didn't move to NC until March of 09'. We saw him only a few times from June of 08' to March of 09'.
I was very lonely during that year. I had and infant and a toddler to raise by myself. Meanwhile he is having second thoughts about the whole thing. I think this was the reason why the Marine Corps put a bad taste in my mouth at first. I felt that it had changed him, for the worse. He seemed to be an arrogant, non-caring person. Given he was no angel when I met him, but this was just ridiculous.
As time went on, I became more comfortable with being a Marine wife. I've learned what I need to do. I'm really proud of myself for that. I don't really have many other marine wife friends though. I'm not that big into the military functions that go on around here. That's just me though. So back to the original thought, do I want to live the military life for a good chunk of my adult life?? Some days I think it would be great. I would love to see other parts of the country, and possibly other countries. It would definitely not be horrible having two good stable incomes coming into the household. But then there's the thought of the unknown. I have no clue what a deployment feels like b/c he's never been on one. I'm sure I would deal with it just fine for the most part. But the thought of what could possibly happen makes me cringe. Do I want to live for 15+ years worrying about whether or not he will be deployed, and then if he does, then I will be worrying about whether or not he will come home whole, or come home at all. I don't know the answer to my question. I guess I will have to go w/ the flow, and see where life takes us....
On another note....Adam is scheduled to get out of the Marine Corps in January of 2012, which is about a year and a half from now. I am supposed to graduate from nursing school in May of 2012. He's gone back and forth on the notion of signing up for another enlistment. It really depends on how work is going. I think it's been going good lately, because he talks more and more about staying in and making a career out of it. I'm not exactly sure how I feel about this. When he first joined the Marine Corps I absolutely hated the way life was going. He left for boot camp Jan 08' came back in April, our daughter was born in May, and then June 1st he was off to combat training. Immediately after that he went to MOS school at Twenty Nine Palms in CA. He was in CA, and I was in Memphis, TN. In Sept 08' he was done w/ MOS, and went to his first duty station, Cherry Point, NC. I assumed now the kids and I would move to NC to be w/ him. Well, this isn't exactly how it played out at first.
He seemed to be having second thoughts about something. Was it me, the kids, or did he just want a new life to himself??? He gave me the run around for a while, then I finally found out that he had been talking to this girl that he met in CA. She was actually just vacationing in CA. I didn't ever find out the extent of their relationship, and I really don't care to know. Back then I did, but now I don't. It really doesn't matter. Obviously we worked through the whole thing. We didn't move to NC until March of 09'. We saw him only a few times from June of 08' to March of 09'.
I was very lonely during that year. I had and infant and a toddler to raise by myself. Meanwhile he is having second thoughts about the whole thing. I think this was the reason why the Marine Corps put a bad taste in my mouth at first. I felt that it had changed him, for the worse. He seemed to be an arrogant, non-caring person. Given he was no angel when I met him, but this was just ridiculous.
As time went on, I became more comfortable with being a Marine wife. I've learned what I need to do. I'm really proud of myself for that. I don't really have many other marine wife friends though. I'm not that big into the military functions that go on around here. That's just me though. So back to the original thought, do I want to live the military life for a good chunk of my adult life?? Some days I think it would be great. I would love to see other parts of the country, and possibly other countries. It would definitely not be horrible having two good stable incomes coming into the household. But then there's the thought of the unknown. I have no clue what a deployment feels like b/c he's never been on one. I'm sure I would deal with it just fine for the most part. But the thought of what could possibly happen makes me cringe. Do I want to live for 15+ years worrying about whether or not he will be deployed, and then if he does, then I will be worrying about whether or not he will come home whole, or come home at all. I don't know the answer to my question. I guess I will have to go w/ the flow, and see where life takes us....
Friday, July 9, 2010
Frustration...
This morning I woke up to the sound of Adam's alarm going off around 5:30...as I normally do everyday. He gets up, wastes a little time before he has to go to PT. Then 5 minutes before he's about to leave he asks me where his gym shorts are. I reply that if he is referring to the ones that were in the floor, then they are probably in the dirty clothes, as they should be. He then proceeds to yell about how he's always telling me not to wash his shorts if he puts them on the floor because he's only worn them for a little while. He then gets mad because his shoes are put up in the hall closet, as opposed to being strewn throughout the house.
This situation really angers me. He's indignant towards me because I do what?? I wash (and fold and put away) his clothes, and I put away his shoes??? This is just ludicrous. I told him I won't wash his clothes anymore, simple as that. We'll see how long it is until he asks me to wash them again. As a matter of fact, I wash more of his clothes than anyone else's in the house. Looks like I'll have some free time on my hands. Oh and then he tries to be nice to me before he leaves for work. Tries to act like nothing happened. I guess I should have been nice to him, but I just needed some time to cool off. Him of all people should understand this.
Today we are supposed to go meet and older lady who babysits children. I've already made my mind up that I am taking the kids to the CDC on base. We only waited 7 months to get off the waiting list. I'm only going to meet the lady to appease my husband. I guess we should have a back up plan too though.
This situation really angers me. He's indignant towards me because I do what?? I wash (and fold and put away) his clothes, and I put away his shoes??? This is just ludicrous. I told him I won't wash his clothes anymore, simple as that. We'll see how long it is until he asks me to wash them again. As a matter of fact, I wash more of his clothes than anyone else's in the house. Looks like I'll have some free time on my hands. Oh and then he tries to be nice to me before he leaves for work. Tries to act like nothing happened. I guess I should have been nice to him, but I just needed some time to cool off. Him of all people should understand this.
Today we are supposed to go meet and older lady who babysits children. I've already made my mind up that I am taking the kids to the CDC on base. We only waited 7 months to get off the waiting list. I'm only going to meet the lady to appease my husband. I guess we should have a back up plan too though.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Good Day
Today was a good day! The kids were pretty good. We went to the park this morning, and enjoyed the mild weather. I think it's gonna get hot tomorrow. I also bought a computer chair! I needed it for my back. I tend to slouch while at my computer. Hopefully the chair will help.
I got my nursing books in the mail yesterday. I'm so excited. Although I opened them up and it was like reading a foreign language. I can't wait to start school in August. I'm nervous too though. Mostly because of the clinical parts. I've always been good at studying, but hands on stuff is a different story. I will definitely be out of my comfort zone. I've also read a lot of horrible stories of mean doctors and clinical instructors. and of course all of the drama that goes along with nursing school. That's anywhere though. I'm just gonna have to forget about all that stuff, cause in the end, I'm only there for myself.
I've been reading some more military wife blogs today. It's really amazing how much military wives have to go through, and how strong they seem to be. It really inspires me.
Oh yea....working on potty training my 2 year old right now. Today she went into the bathroom and peed all by herself w/o telling anyone!! I'm so proud of her.
I got my nursing books in the mail yesterday. I'm so excited. Although I opened them up and it was like reading a foreign language. I can't wait to start school in August. I'm nervous too though. Mostly because of the clinical parts. I've always been good at studying, but hands on stuff is a different story. I will definitely be out of my comfort zone. I've also read a lot of horrible stories of mean doctors and clinical instructors. and of course all of the drama that goes along with nursing school. That's anywhere though. I'm just gonna have to forget about all that stuff, cause in the end, I'm only there for myself.
I've been reading some more military wife blogs today. It's really amazing how much military wives have to go through, and how strong they seem to be. It really inspires me.
Oh yea....working on potty training my 2 year old right now. Today she went into the bathroom and peed all by herself w/o telling anyone!! I'm so proud of her.
Day to Day...
Drinking a cup of coffee and preparing for the day. My fav. part of the day! I should have been up a few hours ago, but I can't seem to get my body to function any earlier that 8am. I've really gotta prepare for nursing school, when I'm gonna have to get up super early almost every day. I'll get there I suppose. haha Griffin (my son) is the same way in the mornings, he hates getting up. I can't blame him.
My list of things to do today: go to the park, find a rug for the front room, possibly find a computer chair, and work out.
ughhh.....I haven't really worked out since last year when school started. It was my first semester back to school in a while and I was taking serious classes (not just playin around). It's almost like I've lost motivation to work out. Or maybe it's that I am constantly TIRED!! I don't know what it is, but I need to get my butt in gear. I can feel the pounds slowly packing on.
My list of things to do today: go to the park, find a rug for the front room, possibly find a computer chair, and work out.
ughhh.....I haven't really worked out since last year when school started. It was my first semester back to school in a while and I was taking serious classes (not just playin around). It's almost like I've lost motivation to work out. Or maybe it's that I am constantly TIRED!! I don't know what it is, but I need to get my butt in gear. I can feel the pounds slowly packing on.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
And so it begins....
So here I am. I finally decided to start blogging. Not having much luck on the design part yet tho. Took me almost 2 hours to change the blog title to a font that wasn't part of the normal group. Oh well, at least I learned. I think I might go get a book or something today.
It all happened 2 nights ago. I came across this military wife blog. Then I started reading some other ones. Having found these really inspired me. They all seemed to have 2 things in common. One, their blogs were a place that they could vent out their frustrations, fears, and other such emotions. And two, the blogs seem to connect people and let them know that they are not alone. I think it's really amazing that other people will share their stories and their most personal thoughts.
I have been married to a marine since April of 2008. We've been together since I was in high school, in November of 2004. He's been a marine since January of 2008. He left for boot camp when I was 6 months pregnant with our second child. It's been a pretty bumpy ride since he's been in the Marine Corps. Although we are lucky that he has never been deployed thus far. So I don't have a wounded husband, or any stories of dealing with PTSD. I'm very aware that those things could possibly be my future. I just want to hope for the best, but prepare for the worst. My husband may be deploying in October of this year for 3 months to Afghanistan. 3 months isn't that long right?! It is when I have 2 kids, am starting my first semester of nursing school in August, and live 530 miles away from any family. I do have a few friends here. And although I don't have too many close friends, the ones that I have made are amazing and would do anything they could to help me out. For that I am thankful. But one thing I've learned since living the military life is that no matter how hard or hopeless it may seem, we military wives have to succeed and make it through, because that is our only option!
On another note~me and the kids are off to the park, then the bookstore to buy them a book (and me a book on blogging), also I'm hoping to find a rug for my front room. At least that is my plan! :)
It all happened 2 nights ago. I came across this military wife blog. Then I started reading some other ones. Having found these really inspired me. They all seemed to have 2 things in common. One, their blogs were a place that they could vent out their frustrations, fears, and other such emotions. And two, the blogs seem to connect people and let them know that they are not alone. I think it's really amazing that other people will share their stories and their most personal thoughts.
I have been married to a marine since April of 2008. We've been together since I was in high school, in November of 2004. He's been a marine since January of 2008. He left for boot camp when I was 6 months pregnant with our second child. It's been a pretty bumpy ride since he's been in the Marine Corps. Although we are lucky that he has never been deployed thus far. So I don't have a wounded husband, or any stories of dealing with PTSD. I'm very aware that those things could possibly be my future. I just want to hope for the best, but prepare for the worst. My husband may be deploying in October of this year for 3 months to Afghanistan. 3 months isn't that long right?! It is when I have 2 kids, am starting my first semester of nursing school in August, and live 530 miles away from any family. I do have a few friends here. And although I don't have too many close friends, the ones that I have made are amazing and would do anything they could to help me out. For that I am thankful. But one thing I've learned since living the military life is that no matter how hard or hopeless it may seem, we military wives have to succeed and make it through, because that is our only option!
On another note~me and the kids are off to the park, then the bookstore to buy them a book (and me a book on blogging), also I'm hoping to find a rug for my front room. At least that is my plan! :)
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